You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:13 ESV
Breaking up is hard to do, or so they say. It’s not that a pile of devotional books almost a foot tall isn’t helpful to read each morning in my desperate search for a peaceful beginning to my day. You know the drill: plop out of bed, make a pit stop, stumble to the kitchen, make coffee, grab your stack of devotion material, then sit down and try to have some quiet time with God before things get too crazy.
There’s the kicker. What happens when crazy hits before the routine has been perfectly executed? Unfortunately, the alarm clock failing, kids waking up too early, the dog having an accident, or any other unauthorized interruption to the hallowed ritual can ruin the whole day if you hold onto it with white-knuckles.
Though most days went fairly smoothly and I gained such wisdom and revelation from my early reading sessions, this spring and summer were full of opportunities for me to visit and be visited my grandchildren. Little ones don’t seem to know their Oma needs at least one cup of coffee and a couple of devotions under my belt before I start spoiling. They rise and shine and need certain drinks, food, and entertainment before I can even turn on the Keurig in the morning.
In addition to all of my hard copy devotionals, I get 2-4 email devotions per day, I use my prayer app to pray, and listen to my Bible app reading plan for the day. Oh, and I also click on videos or podcasts from social media to make sure I’m not missing something.
When I got behind on all of this stuff I thought helped me seek God in the morning, I felt like I had not lived up to God’s expectations of me. I remember Joyce Meyer saying that we shouldn’t make our quiet time an idol. Was that what I was doing?
One day while I was shopping in Hobby Lobby, God drew my attention to a journal that had one Bible verse for each page. He wanted me to read a verse, ask Him what it means to me for that day, and write about it. “You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart.” Jeremiah 29:13. I bought the journal that day.
I’d love to say that I broke up with my morning routine the next morning and used the journal to digest instead of ingest what God had to say to me, but I didn’t. It took a few months before I surrendered to His request for me to slow down and spend quality time with Him.
Maybe I’m not the only who gets out of balance by performing for instead of being with Jesus each morning. Breaking up with my morning routine was the best thing for me to when my heart was anxious and overwhelmed, and the result was peace and rest.